For the curious…

Here are the answers to the shuffle meme… The ones in orange are the ones that people guessed correctly.

1. What’s a matter Mary Jane? “Mary Jane” by Alanis Morrisette
2. I can’t stop myself from calling “In the Morning” by Nora Jones
3. You brace and hold it all inside/It’s more than you can stand/No one ever tries to understand “Come Out Swinging” by Offspring
4. As they pulled you out from the oxygen tent/You asked for the latest party “Diamond Dogs by Beck
5. I’ve been watching you and all you do for quite some time “Let Me In” by Save Ferris
6. Steve, Gordon, Ali, Pam, Sue, I’m Angel, Tom, Collins Life Support from the musical Rent
7. Let me tell you about a girl I know/she follows me around wherever I go/This little girl, she drives me insane “Slave Girl” by Goo Goo Dolls
8. Harry Truman was our president/A coke a burger cost you 30 cent “The Night Hank Williams Came to Town” by Johnny Cash
9. I could’ve been a sailor/ I could’ve been a cook/A real live lover, could have been a book “One of These Things First” by Nick Drake (From the Garden State soundtrack)
10. I live at the end of a 5 and half minute hallway “Five and a half minute hallway by” Poe
11. I’m wide awake in the dark/trying to figure out where you are “Red Light Fever” by Liz Phair
12. I know I should be happy in your land/It’s not all that wild to me/not that I want it to be any other way/I know that it’s hell out there/ here at the borders of America Town “America Town” by Five for Fighting
13. In a room full of people, hanging on one person’s breath “Green and Grey” by Nickel Creek)
14. He scares easily, it makes him so angry at me ” Trigger Happy Jack” by Poe
15. I love the east/I love the west/north, south they’re both the best/but I only want to go there as a guest/ “I Love Being Here with You” by Diana Krall
16. You’ve got your ball “Crash” by Dave Matthews Band
17. If only we could fly “My Generation” by Limp Bizkit
18. I heard a word from on high “Made for TV Movie” by Incubus
19. Some day mother will die and I’ll get the money “I Palindrome I” by They Might Be Giants
20. Drink up baby doll “Let Go” by Frou Frou
21. Not saying, not charmed at all “Crazy” by Tori Amos)
22. My love, my love, my love, how could you do this to me? “Letter Read” by Rachel Yamagata
23. Don’t go changing “Don’t go changing” by Billy Joel
24. What’s wrong baby?/Don’t they treat you like they should?/Did you take them for/every penny that you could? “If You Don’t, You Don’t” by Jimmy Eat World
25. Baby you pretend that things ain’t what they seem “Get Mine, Get Yours” by Christina Aguilera

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Overdoing it

Things are moving along quite nicely as far as the house is concerned. We were able to get the sellers to pay for half of the roof and we got a quote from a reputable roofer for less than we thought. Now that things are starting to look more real that we’re going to buy a house (!), I’ve started to get more serious on this bike commuting thing.

I’ve been riding my bike to and from work (lab) for the past few days without much problem. The commute, though, from my apartment to the lab is only about 2.5 miles. The distance from the house to the lab is about 5 miles. So, yesterday, in my infinite wisdom, I decided to go on a test drive (bike?) for the entire 5 mile distance. I did my normal morning commute into the lab. I got done early, so I decided to bike downtown to the library (I’m craving new books to read and can’t afford to buy any more). The trip from the lab to the library is about 2.5 miles. This makes it about 5 miles from the library back to the apartment (the lab is in the middle). So, I thought, hey great idea! And it was a great idea… until I got home. I took the Dixie Dog out, made dinner, and then sat down to eat and read aforementioned books. I decided that I deserved some wine for burning all those calories and I found that I could not move my legs. I looked at my legs and said, “Legs move.” Not even a twitch. This time I decided to reward them, “Legs, get me some wine and I will give you a bath… and some chocolate.” Apparently they were not only rebellious, but they were also treasonous as they refused to move– what part of my body would refuse to move for chocolate?!?

Eventually, with some sighing and pleading, I was able to retrieve the wine and chocolate and some ibuprofen. Today I’m tired and bit sore and have decided to not bike into work tomorrow. (Although, again in my infinite wisdom, I did today.)

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Shuffle Meme, New and Improved!

Ok, so not only are my music tastes somewhat eclectic and out of touch, but they’re also strange. So, now I’ve included hints!

1. What’s a matter Mary Jane? “Mary Jane” by Alanis Morrisette
2. I can’t stop myself from calling (Nora Jones)
3. You brace and hold it all inside /It’s more than you can stand/No one ever tries to understand” (Offspring)
4. As they pulled you out from the oxygen tent/You asked for the latest party (Beck)
5. I’ve been watching you and all you do for quite some time (Save Ferris)
6. Steve, Gordon, Ali, Pam, Sue, I’m Angel, Tom, Collins (From a popular musical in the 1990s. About 20-somethings with AIDS and was recently–2005ish– made into a motion picture.) Life Support (close enough) from the musical Rent
7. Let me tell you about a girl I know/she follows me around wherever I go/This little girl, she drives me insane (Goo-Goo Dolls from the same CD that “Name” was on)
8. Harry Truman was our president/A coke a burger cost you 30 cent The Night Hank Williams Came to Town by Johnny Cash
9. I could’ve been a sailor/ I could’ve been a cook/A real live lover, could have been a book (from the Garden State Sound track)
10. I live at the end of a 5 and half minute hallway (Poe)
11. I’m wide awake in the dark/trying to figure out where you are (Liz Phair)
12. I know I should be happy in your land/It’s not all that wild to me/not that I want it to be any other way/I know that it’s hell out there/ here at the borders of America Town
13. In a room full of people, hanging on one person’s breath (Nickel Creek)
14. He scares easily, it makes him so angry at me Song name: Trigger Happy Jack
15. I love the east/I love the west/north, south they’re both the best/but I only want to go there as a guest/— the next line is the song title
16. You’ve got your ball Crash by Dave Matthews Band
17. If only we could fly (Limp Bizkit)My Generation by Limp Bizkit
18. I heard a word from on high (Incubus from “A crow left of the murder” album)
19. Some day mother will die and I’ll get the money I Palindrome I by They Might Be Giants
20. Drink up baby doll Let Go by Frou Frou
21. Not saying, not charmed at all (Tori Amos)
22. My love, my love, my love, how could you do this to me? (Rachel Yamagata)
23. Don’t go changing Don’t go changing by Billy Joel
24. What’s wrong baby?/Don’t they treat you like they should?/Did you take them for/every penny that you could?
25. Baby you pretend that things ain’t what they seem (Christina Aguilera)

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Dark Lady

I just finished reading “Rosalind Franklin: The Dark Lady of DNA.” To say that it was interesting would be an extreme understatement.

I picked up this book many moons ago to fulfill my biography craving. I like to read several books at a time in order to have a choice of books depending on my mood. So, when I’m having a rough time in lab I’ll pick something light-hearted and chick-lit-like. If I’m in a pensive mood, I’ll read something like “Godel, Escher, and Bach: The Eternal Golden Braid.” This also leaves room for reading about house buying (I’d recommend either “100 Questions Every First Time Home Buyer Should Ask by Ilyce Glink” or “The Idiots Guide to Home Buying” both were excellent) or reading about some random subject (lately I’ve been reading about Feminist Theology– there may be a post for many of you to skip in the future!). However, this also means that when I’m having a tough time in the lab I do not want to read about someone else having a tough time in the lab. So, “Rosalind Franklin” has been on the back burner for these many months.

I do think that Brenda Maddox did an excellent job of giving a balanced portrayal of Rosalind Franklin (this should be taken with a large boulder of salt as I’ve only read webpages prior to this and these either read like fan mail or hate mail). In fact, I told Dr. Man that I don’t know if I would have like Franklin if she had been a labmate of mine. Maddox portrayed Franklin as an intense, reserved woman in public. However, once she got to know people she was “kindness itself.” So, I probably would like her if I got to know her, but if we disagreed on something I’d have to be prepared to stand my ground and present a substantial argument. (The latter is something I admire– even if I’m only ok at it.)

Maddox also did her best to destroy the “dour Rosy” that was prominent in James Watson’s book “The Double Helix.” As it turns out Franklin was a smart dresser who was rather pretty. She was very animated and was brilliant (as her doctoral students, Raymond Gosling and Ken Holmes, pointed out). Additionally, “The Double Helix” portrays the relationship between “Rosy” and Watson and Crick as always being a strained one. This, however, is untrue. When, Franklin was later working on TMV, she and Watson openly collaborated (as Watson had previously did tremendous work on TMV). Additionally, Franklin and the Cricks became good friends. So much so that when she was recovering from surgery (to remove tumors in her abdomen) the Cricks invited Franklin to convalesce at their home. This, to me, may have been an even greater betrayal to Franklin’s memory than the unethical dealings in the discovery of the structure of DNA.

Now, on the crux of the matter, Maddox did an excellent job trying to untangle the discovery of the structure of DNA. She maintains that there was no “physical stealing of data.” That is no one snuck into Franklin’s office late at night and stole material. However, without her data Watson and Crick would not have figured out the structure of DNA. Maddox writes that Gosling, Franklin’s graduate student, shared his data with Wilkins (who was Gosling’s co-advisor). Wilkins, in turn, showed the X-ray picture to Watson and told him everything that Franklin had discussed with Wilkins. Maddox writes that this out-pouring of data to Watson was not intentional on Wilkins part, it came out in the course of Wilkins complaining about Franklin. However, Watson and Crick did make the final leap to the actual structure of DNA. It is unfair to say that Franklin had “no idea what her data meant.” Franklin had more than a good idea (as she was the one who determined that the phosphates had to be on the outside, the diameter of the double helix, the length of one turn, the space groups, and the two forms of DNA- A and B) of what her data meant. She was unwilling, though, to present a model that was not based entirely on experimental evidence. In fact without her experimental evidence backing up Watson and Crick’s model, the model would have just been an interesting thought experiment.

The real under-handedness came about with the attribution of credit to said model. Neither Watson, Crick, or Wilkins admitted, within Franklin’s lifetime, that without Franklin’s data they would not have been able to build such a model. Additionally, none of them told Franklin that they were using her data to determine the structure of DNA, while they knew full well that she was working on the same project. She was scooped by a member of her own lab! So, while there was no sneaking about in the cover of night, there was still unethical behavior involved.

It is sad, though, that Franklin’s legacy is built upon this incident. She was a pioneer in X-ray crystallography, taking better X-ray pictures than were previously seen. She was a brilliant experimentalist who was able to look at a problem and figure out the most elegant solution. After her time at King’s she went to Birkbeck where she put together a world-renowned plant virology lab. Her co-worker, Aaron Klug, won the Nobel Prize for their work. She was invited many times on a lecture tour in the United States. Additionally, the NIH gave her funding to continue her work on plant viruses. She determined the location of the RNA inside the Tobacco Mosaic Virus (it fits around into the “knobs” in the protein). She published thirty-seven scientific papers, her model of TMV was exhibited in the Brussels World Fair, and was just an excellent Scientist.

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What hot, molten crazy will get you at times

I’ve been taking some time off from Science (does this make me a bad scientist?). As I’ve previously mentioned, I decided to take a week off commemorating the end of the semester and visit Dr. Man. In fact I was encouraged to do so. (I think this might have something to do with me spewing hot, molten crazy all over Advisor about two weeks ago. After I was done and my face had returned to a normal color, but before I could get embarrassed and realize how much I had just screwed up, Advisor said, “It’s fine. Don’t apologize. I understand. Classes are done on the 24th, I don’t want to see back her until the 2nd. Take some time, enjoy yourself. Consider it a present.”)

I’ve spent the past several days doing absolutely nothing. I’ve played around on the internet, watched some Babylon 5 (yes I’m a dork), eaten the good food Dr. Man has made, and enjoyed going on long walks with the Dixie Dog and Dr. Man. I’ve even indulged in napping, which is one of my favorite past times. Yesterday I stretched out on one end of the couch with my legs on top of the Dixie Dog and my feet resting on Dr. Man’s lap. I could feel all of us breathe in sync. In and out. Dog would snuffle every so often and then settle down. Eventually, Dr. Man got up and poured us some wine. We continued lounging and reconnecting throughout twilight and into the dark of night. We spoke of plans for the future, current events, and reminisced about the past.

This is what I needed.

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Lyrics/Shuffle Meme

I was tagged by CAE for this meme. I think I should add as a caveat that my music collection has some really random, very embarrassing stuff. This is because I started ripping CDs from my music collection in college and (somehow) managed to rip all of the CDs I owned prior to that time. I have, as will soon become obvious, not been that efficient since.

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.

Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. (I did skip some songs that had the song title in the first line.)

Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.

Step 4: Strike through when someone gets them right. 

Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING.

1. What’s a matter Mary Jane?
2. I can’t stop myself from calling
3. You brace and hold it all inside
4. As they pulled you out from the oxygen tent
5. I’ve been watching you and all you do for quite some time
6. Steve, Gordon, Ali, Pam, Sue, I’m Angel, Tom, Collins
7. Let me tell you about a girl I know
8. Harry Truman was our president/A coke a burger cost you 30 cent
9. I could’ve been a sailor/ I could’ve been a cook
10. I live at the end of a 5 and half minute hallway
11. I’m wide awake in the dark
12. I know I should be happy in your land
13. In a room full of people, hanging on one person’s breath
14. He scares easily, it makes him so angry at me
15. I love the east
16. You’ve got your ball
17. If only we could fly
18. I heard a word from on high
19. Some day mother will die and I’ll get the money
20. Drink up baby doll
21. Not saying, not charmed at all
22. My love, my love, my love, how could you do this to me?
23. Don’t go changing
24. What’s wrong baby?
25. Baby you pretend that things ain’t what they seem

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I want to be a doctor when I grow up

I met Laura when I was twelve and she was eleven (ok, so this is more than ten years ago). We both wrote poetry, had siblings, and like to read. And a friendship was born. We’d whine and plead and beg our mother’s to let us have sleep-overs and make brownies. Then, one weekend Laura’s mother told her that she couldn’t have anyone over that weekend because she was having treatment. Laura looked sad and asked if she promised to be quiet for the time of her treatment, could I still come over? Eventually, her mother caved and I came over armed with a “Sweet Valley High” book. That was when I found out that Laura had a chronic illness that required enzyme replacement therapy. Within a few weeks I decided to be a doctor and cure my friend’s disease.

This kept up through high school where I read “Hot Zone” and told everyone I was going to be a doctor. Friends would joke that I’d cure cancer. I took every science class that I could take in high school (which I wouldn’t have done without my parent’s encouragement) and declared that one day I’d go to medical school.

Then, I went to college and got a job doing research. That was it. I loved doing research. I liked finding answers to questions. I even liked coming up with more questions. I also realized that if I wanted to discover the cure to any disease the way to do it wasn’t through being a medical doctor, but a PhD. So, I shifted my goal of being a “doctor” slightly.

It never occurred to me to plan further than that. When pressed I told people that I’d probably be a professor after that. I wasn’t too concerned about the hours it would take or the time or the uncertainty. After all, five years ago all I had to worry about was myself.

Then, Dr. Man and I (somewhat abruptly… we’d been good friends for about three or so years) started dating and decided to get married.

Now, I’m in the new position of being uncertain about what I want to do in the future. I like the idea of being a professor, but what if I can’t do it? I’ve got to figure out a way for Dr. Man to be able to move with me to my post-doc, as I did my undergraduate degree at the same institution I’m doing my graduate degree (Dr. Man was going to medical school here before I went to grad school– and we didn’t want to do the long distance thing). Then there’s the move to get a job somewhere. And then what happens if I don’t get tenure? There’s another move. And now I’m thinking I may want to have kids sometime in the near-ish future. Can I really do everything?

So, now I’m looking into alternate career paths and places other than the large research-intensive institutions I had planned on working at. I’m being very careful in deciding what I’m going to do next. I’m trying to honestly evaluate myself and figure out what I’m most likely to be successful at. And I’m angry at myself for not just deciding the heck with it, I’ll give it my best and let the chips fall where they may. Then again I owe it the other person/hypothetical people in my life to be sure of what I want and what I can do.

I think this is what is bothering me the most about my position. Despite putting up with years of people telling me I can’t do something because I’m a woman, or criticizing my job as inappropriate because I’m a woman, or discouraging me to have a career because I’m a woman, for the first time I’m doubting myself.

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House!

Dr. Man and I put an offer on a house in our favorite neighborhood… and it was accepted! Now, we’re in the process of home inspections, pest inspections, final mortgage approval, etc. We got the house for a very reasonable price (below market value… even in this market). It has a yard and everything! The only sticking point is that the house needs a new roof. I think we’re going to see if the sellers will help us pay for it. If not, we’ll have to go from there. (We may still take it because it is a good deal and HGTV says that it’s a very worthwhile improvement.)

Anyhow, for your viewing pleasure… House!

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Carnival of GRADual Progress

I’m hosting this month’s Carnival of GRADual Progress. This is the first time I’ve ever hosted a blog carnival. So, it’ll be a learning experience. Speaking of which, I think that would be a good theme for this month’s carnival: Learning Experiences.* Tell me about various learning experiences (both good and bad) that have occurred during your time in Grad school.**

I’ll be posting the carnival around May 15th (so I’ll set an arbitrary deadline of May 14th 5pm). You can email me submissions to: grad[dot]carnival at gmail[dot]com. Also, while Advisor will readily tell you that I spend a lot of time on the internet, I don’t read every grad student blog out there, so please let me know if there’s a grad student blog out there that has an awesome post or that I should be reading!***

*As usual if you don’t like the theme or if you just have non-conformist tendencies or you just have another post you’re dying to get out there, off-topic posts are more than welcome.
**I think that post-docs and profs can play, too. But since this is about grad school, I think the posts should be related to such. (If someone knows better, please let me know.)
***Someone please help this poor run-on sentence!

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Lots of updates

I rode my bike into work for the first time today. I learned two very important things:

1. I am not in as good shape as I think I am.
2. It’s harder to ride in dirt than I remember.

Overall, it was a nice easy ride. It took less time for me to get in than it takes to drive or ride the bus. So, I rode about 2.5 miles in about 16 minutes (I timed myself on my watch). I’m at work right now and pleasantly tired. I’m hoping to recover enough to ride home. If not then, I’ll take the bus home.

To answer questions that people asked:

– Dr. Man works craaazzy hours. So, he’ll probably be driving in just so that he can go home and sleep.
-Parking on campus is insane. Parking permits run upwards of $100 and they don’t guarantee you a spot. You just have the right to hunt for a spot. And my guess is that I’ll get to the lab faster if I bike than if I drive.
-I am hoping that by putting on the daylight hours only restrictions I’ll get up early and leave work early. Put me on regular hours and all that. And possibly cure me of the sleeping in thing.

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In other news, Dr. Man and I have put an offer on another house. I’m hoping that this pans out… I’m not feeling too optimistic, but that’s because I was so optimistic the last time. I just don’t like uncertainty and having to wait. I guess I’m a bit of a control freak that way.

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I’m taking a whole week off! I decided that I really need to see Dr. Man for a while and I’m making progress on the yeast stuff. I’m working today and tomorrow and then I’m off. I’m trying not to feel guilty about taking the time off (I should be making more progress, be done with project, etc.). However, it’s not like I’ve made no progress. I’ve got a couple of constructs and am preparing one for the plasmid shuffling. So, I’ve got stuff done. What I need to get done by July is grow assays and those take about 3 days. So, I think I’m good. Sigh. All this stress over taking time off to go visit Dr. Man. Even Advisor is telling me to go.

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